Colossians 1:10 ……..and asking that the way you live will always please the Lord and honor Him, so that you will always be doing good, kind things for others, while all the the time you are learning to know God better and better.
So you want to know God better, you want a closer relationship to Him. You are getting a good start with the way you treat others through your kindness. When you reach out to a volunteer organiztion and give them your time. If you are not working right now, learn your way to God through serving others and stop thinking about how it’s going to be to hard for you, you won’t have time, you have to make time. Stop thinking about what you need and just groaning about it and go help someone. You are making that step that God watches. Acts of kindness -works of faith.